2010 December

Here we are again the beginning of another year . A question always asked what are your resolutions for this New year?  What promises do you make to yourself and how do you strive to achieve them?

I am very aware a year has passed since my friend and colleague Kate died but yet it seems like a blink of an eye .  Concept of time is in the eye of the beholder .

I am sure for some the year will have dragged itself out,  for others time will have stood still and for others time  will have run out before managing to achieve what was set out towards.

I am conscious that for me in knowing people whose  lives that have ended prematurely and those that are currently in the beginning of their personal journey after  learning that their life is to be cut short makes me acknowledge that the majority of us trust that we will live till we are old and it is only when those in our inner circles are effected by sudden death or terminal illness that we stand back and wobble as we come to terms with our own mortality.

The impact for me is to ask what is really important to me? and what do I need to do? what needs to be in place ?  My realization that I miss out on so much that is happening in the moment by rushing past it to strive to be more or to constantly analyse what has gone to see how I may do it different in the future  but yet what does that look like and how will I know when I am there and what if I don’t get the opportunity as my life ends early  all the while missing out on know .

Then I get back to trusting that I will be ok and my resolution is to be in the moment more and to have those dreams that spur me forward  but not get lost in the planning but to have them as a light to guide me.  Finding the balance between self care and giving to others .To ask for my needs to be met and not be afraid to take measured  risks.

What does 2011 mean for you?

How can you make it count?

What do you hope for?

How do you steer yourself towards that place ?