2011
Here we are again the beginning of another year . A question always asked what are your resolutions for this New year? What promises do you make to yourself and how do you strive to achieve them?
I am very aware a year has passed since my friend and colleague Kate died but yet it seems like a blink of an eye . Concept of time is in the eye of the beholder .
I am sure for some the year will have dragged itself out, for others time will have stood still and for others time will have run out before managing to achieve what was set out towards.
I am conscious that for me in knowing people whose lives that have ended prematurely and those that are currently in the beginning of their personal journey after learning that their life is to be cut short makes me acknowledge that the majority of us trust that we will live till we are old and it is only when those in our inner circles are effected by sudden death or terminal illness that we stand back and wobble as we come to terms with our own mortality.
The impact for me is to ask what is really important to me? and what do I need to do? what needs to be in place ? My realization that I miss out on so much that is happening in the moment by rushing past it to strive to be more or to constantly analyse what has gone to see how I may do it different in the future but yet what does that look like and how will I know when I am there and what if I don’t get the opportunity as my life ends early all the while missing out on know .
Then I get back to trusting that I will be ok and my resolution is to be in the moment more and to have those dreams that spur me forward but not get lost in the planning but to have them as a light to guide me. Finding the balance between self care and giving to others .To ask for my needs to be met and not be afraid to take measured risks.
What does 2011 mean for you?
How can you make it count?
What do you hope for?
How do you steer yourself towards that place ?
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January 6, 2011 8:09 pm
angelmoon says:
Hi Jill
Your email is very profound and full of thought provoking words…sad as well as motivational I feel….as I read it something stirred and I think you have captured very well in your words how I am feeling, sad that so much has gone by, and just happened, I was there but didnt live the moment of it….just as you say…looked past it to the next thing…not embracing “it” whatever “it” was….yet it seems that the negative “its” were all consuming…fighting wars that other people declared, just because they wanted to….all the ” I havent…yets” and “I need to” seem to swallow up the “I am” and the “me moments”, always looking a mile ahead and missing what is there in front of me…..fear of doing something because the fear of feeling the regret if it is wrong is so strong….and yet….we are alive in this moment and should live it….tomorrow may not matter….I think I am lost in the limbo between then…now….and tomorrow, next week, next year……
angelmoon
January 10, 2011 11:37 am
Mary says:
I too am concentrating on living in the moment; I miss much when I fear and make assumptions about what lies ahead. I identify with the ‘wobble’ and facing my own mortality.
It has been a very strange Christmas and new year.
Jill, I thought of you on receiving this,
I will no longer worry about yesterday.
It is in the past and the past will never change.
Only I can change by choosing to do so.
I will no longer worry about tomorrow.
Tomorrow will always be there, waiting for me to make the most of it.
But I cannot make the most of tomorrow without first making the most of today.
I will look in the mirror and I will see a person worthy of my respect and admiration.
This capable person looking back at me is someone I enjoy
spending time with and someone I would like to get to know better.
I will cherish each moment of my life.
I value this gift bestowed upon me in this world and I will unselfishly share
this gift with others. I will use this gift to enhance the lives of others.
I will take a moment to step off the beaten path and to revel in the mysteries I encounter.
I will face challenges with courage and determination. I will overcome what barriers
there may be which hinder my quest for growth and self-improvement.
I will take life one day at a time, one step at a time.
Discouragement will not be allowed to taint my positive self-image,
my desire to succeed or my capacity to love.
I walk with renewed faith in human kindness.
Regardless of what has gone before,
I believe there is hope for a brighter and better future.
I will open my mind and my heart.
I will welcome new experiences. I will meet new people.
I will not expect perfection from myself nor anyone else … perfection does not
exist in an imperfect world. But I will applaud the attempt to overcome human foibles.
I am responsible for my own happiness and I will do things that make me happy.
I will admire the beautiful wonders of nature, listen to my
favorite music, pet a kitten or puppy, and soak in a bubble bath.
Pleasure can be found in the most simple of gestures.
I will learn something new; I will try something different;
I will savor all the various flavors life has to offer.
I will change what I can and the rest I will let go.
I will strive to become the best me I can possibly be.
I will live life this year in a way that
I can look back on it fondly and without regrets and
I WILL MAKE THIS THE BEST YEAR EVER!
~Author Unknown